There are times when you look in the mirror and think, this is not who I see. This blog is about finding the other inside. I started the journey to change physically & mentally and this blog is to document how far the human heart and body can push itself.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
So fresh and so clean
When I look back at pictures from last year or two, I cringe. It is crazy to me how much my body has changed. Yes, I have dropped a considerable amount of weight and currently I rest at a plateau of 247 that I have not been able to break. I’m ok with not stepping on the scale to test my current weight because I feel better than I did before. I recover in under a minute from hard exercise and I can push my heart rate up into successful zones.
All of these things are good to me.
What I am excited about is clothes.Although I am a dapper dan, I am kind of the girliest of girl in regards to fashion, shoes, etc. There is a huge part of my persona that is dress good to feel good and most of it came about during a trip to Minnesota and being around a very put together friend.
At times it was hard to put together outfits that I enjoyed at the weight and size that I was. There were so many things that I wanted to wear but just couldn’t. As I lost weight I was able to wear items that I had bought with the ability to “leave a jacket open” that I could finally close and button the jacket. It’s a bit accomplishment when you are able to have those moments.
All of my dress clothes that I wear for work are over two years old. This means they are all fairly big on me. I’ve worked at buying shirts that fit my shoulders and show off the slimmer me. Yet I’ve not bought any pants, so I end up wearing pants that are hanging off my hips or that had buttons on them to trim the waist. I had seen a pair of pants that I liked on sale online and I bought them in a smaller size than what I currently wear (they are actually 2 sizes smaller). I figured that I would just hang onto them until I lost enough weight to fit in them. Through my mom’s encouragement when they arrived I tried them on.
They fit. No sucking in the gut. No wearing slimming undergarments. They just fit.
So I’ve got just a little bit to go before I am able to finally & comfortably fit into the “dream outfit” I had picked out when I first starting losing weight and getting into shape. Then I’ll have to pick a new one.
"Ain't nobody dope as me I'm dressed so fresh so clean
Don't you think I'm so sexy I'm dressed so fresh so clean
Ain't nobody dope as me I'm dressed so fresh so clean
I love when you stare at me I'm dressed so fresh so clean"